I've begun this blog to document what I hope is a vast amount of weightloss. It's all Ive been thinking about lately. I've seen my pictures of late,and am embarrased to put them on my facebook,unless its a face shot. Even then you can see that I'm a Thick Chick. I use thick chick,because if I say I'm fat, Im admitting defeat over my own self. My own lack of self control when it comes to food,and movement,and all that.
I will be thirty in sept. I've been on the 20 something roller coaster,and now,Im about not to be a 20 something. Its time for some life changes. I've had my babies,and dont't plan on anymore. I've partied like it was 1999 for a few years. Now,I'm married,and stagent about my weight. My life is full,to be sure. I have a great husband, 2 beautiful boys,and now,I tend to just exist being fat and happy. Well, I want to be happy,but no longer thick.
I'm taller than the average woman. At 5'7, I do tall people things for my Memaw,and can reach the top shelf in my pantry. Maybe thats part of the problem too. I carry my thickness all over. Especially,like many women,in my hips and booty. My pelvis looks like 2 country hams,my arms shake like a bowl full of jello shots,my face makes me look part St.Benard these days. About the only thing I feel like I have going for me in the looks department is a genuine smile,and my hair. But alas,even my once deep brown hair is revolting on me,so I dye out the greys.
I have begun this blog today of all days because Im going to have another nerve block done on my back. My blood pressure is high from my normal 110/60. It was up to 145/91 on Monday. I thought,as I heard the words HYPERTENSIVE,that the dr outside my exam room could not be talking about ME. But he was. I have a bad back. I have arthristis in it,that I have lived with for years. My back has gone in and out several times over the years,but never like this. I'm in constant pain. Im bipolar as well,and when Im depressed,I eat. And Im not taking about salads with some vinegerette. I mean half a box of Fudge Rounds,and a big glass of milk. In soothing my soul,Ive added unneeded thickness,to my already big boned self.
So,its time for a change. I dont really have a plan of action just yet. The days of eating whatever I want,and dancing it off later, are gone. I dont stay up all night anymore chain smoking and drinking coffee and popping mini thins to stay up,and give me energy. The thickness I have is affecting my daily life. I don't want to be like this anymore! I want to change! I want to change my body,to help my mind,and vice versa.
So I began this blog today,to have a place to vent it out.
Im beginning this journey back up to my biggest weight. 233 lbs. Thats a lot,I know. But times,they are going to change for this thick chick!!!
